Spring is coming!

Monday, March 6, 2017

I've been noticing a change in the mornings when I'm preparing for work. It's light out! It's a great feeling to wake up and not have it be dark out. It becomes a pain when you're waking every morning to pitch darkness and you're expected to be wide awake. I'm also seeing a return in our local bird population. We've been feeding them the past few weeks and they've definitely began to multiply.

I'm also excited because that means I can start letting the cat outside more with the warmer weather. Yeah, I said cat, I feel as if I forgot to mention that with my current updates. My girlfriend and I ended up getting a cat almost a year ago now when our upstairs neighbors moved. They had had for a few years and I feel thought she was a bit too unruly for them. They ended up with another cat anyway and our feline was particular and always getting into trouble and thrown outside. We fell in love with her because she visited us often, often staying in for the night because we felt bad for her because it was so cold.

She quickly went from being an almost outside the entire time cat, to an inside cat only. Now, we panic whenever she ends up outside. She quickly comes back so far but it makes me uncomfortable to toss her out. We still live in an apartment so I don't have a screened in porch option and I can't make her her own catio, even if I wish I could, so I invested in an KittyWalk from ebay. I'm currently waiting on it to arrive. When it does, I hope I can acclimate her to it easily and get her outside safely to enjoy the weather. I plan on adding to it slowly to give her more space to enjoy being outside.

I'm also ready for Spring because along with the change in season, I feel comes a change of feeling the need for renewal. I feel the change is easy to come by as everything is blooming and coming back for the Summer. It's not hard to make a change or become optimist when everything around you has reached its peak. I have been feeling quite stuck lately which has caused me some stress. We've lived in our current apartment for several years. I'm ready for something bigger, something that's actually ours but it's really hard to come by in this town, especially for a price that we can both afford on our salaries.

I just feel for my age (our age) we should be out by now, onto bigger and better things. It's very constricting and self limiting, as most of the idea is in my own head, but truthfully, I am ready for my own environment. One of which I can change or add to without relying on someone else and without someone else's restrictions. It's discouraging when those who are my age or slightly younger or older have purchased homes and seem to be living happily when I'd just love to have a second bedroom to use as an office! Not to mention more space for the cat to run, hence the KittyWalk that I've ordered. It all just seems like a crazy pipedream that will never happen at this rate.

Hopefully I will get to update you on how the KittyWalk goes in an effort to keep the feline safe.

Snow Healing Spell

Thursday, February 9, 2017

Here in West Virginia, we were slammed with some snow today. It's pretty cold out and it's made travel today sort of interesting. Of course, we're still in winter so in the midst of cold and flu season. Here's a little spell I whipped up for healing.

You will need

  • One white candle (tea light, votive, chime, etc all work) and candle holder if needed
  • A bowl or other safe container to place snow in
  • Snow
  • Oil of your choice if you choose to use it

For this spell, collect fresh, untouched snow. So walk to an area of your yard where no one has walked in the snow. Scoop some up and take it inside and place it on your altar.

Ground and center yourself and then pick up the container of snow. Hold it in your hands and visualize the illness penetrating the snow. Continue this until you're tired,  or until you feel like it's enough. 

Place the snow back on your altar and if using an oil, anoint your candle and place it inside the container of snow. Visualize yourself healthy, how you'd feel if your illness were not there or an issue. See yourself happy and relaxed.  When you're ready, light the candle and visualize the melting snow taking with it your illness. As the snow melts, so does the illness, your worries, your anxieties, etc.

Leave the snow on your altar to melt and the candle to burn itself out if possible. Once finished, dispose of the water in your sink seeing all of the illness disappearing with it. Don't water plants with this! Throw the candle away.

This can be repeated as much as necessary to achieve your desired affect. 

Finding Pagan Community Online: Second Life

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

When I first joined Second Life several years ago, I was simply looking forward to finding something to do online, a place I could meet people and chat, explore cool looking destinations and generally just put an end to boredom. I had a great time until an aging computer and slow internet put a damper on my parade. I left Second Life and never really thought I'd be back.

I recently purchased a new computer and thought I would get back into Second Life,  see if anything has changed and just spend some time wandering around to see what people have created. I think it's pretty amazing what people can come up with if given the time and money to make it possible. I did not expect to find a very thriving Pagan community in which I could engage with others.

I've been back for a little over a month now and I've found at least three thriving places that always seem to have someone in them. Sacred Cauldron is a Wiccan Seminary School Sim, however they have an open format for rituals. I just participated in a Imbolc ritual the other night with a rather large group of people! Sacred Cauldron has many shrines and worship areas so you can engage with your chosen deities, even if it is in a virtual world! I visit a Kwan Yin Shrine quite regularly and light a little candle.

Mystical Paths is another SIM that just had an Imbolc ritual. All though the turn out was much smaller than the first, I still was able to celebrate and commune with others of like mind through my computer, and engage in a meaningful ritual that I wouldn't otherwise would have had the opportunity. It is smaller than Sacred Cauldron so it is more intimate and it doesn't have as much area to explore, but the people there are wonderful.

While Second Life cannot replace actually face to face communication, and it definitely isn't the same as sitting in front of your altar, lighting some candles and praying, it is an alternative for people that cannot otherwise have those tools or are lacking a group or coven of which to practice. For me, I enjoy being solitary but having a group of like minded people to celebrate with isn't such a bad idea from time to time.

Second Life is free to join and play but there are some items in world that you may have to pay for. Some people join premium to gain land and weekly spending money, others find in world jobs to make up for this. How you choose to play is up to you.

In this time of renewal

Sunday, February 5, 2017

So, to say the past three and a half years have been rough are an understatement. From my grandfather passing, to my mom suddenly dying, I've been pretty stressed, sort of depressed and I suppose a bit anxious.

To top it off, in August, I started getting weird skipped beat type sensations in my chest. This continued, adding a racing heart and panic attacks to the mix. I spent several evenings in the emergency room with no one able to come up with a good explanation for anything before I finally saw a doctor and then a cardiologist who haven't really given me  an explanation for what's going on. I've been medicated for the palpitations, which are still occurring and I'm still seeing the doctors but no one has been able to say much other than, your tachycardia isn't dangerous, or, your body is doing what it needs to do (in reference to the new arrhythmia that I'm experiencing). It's been stressful to say the least.

I've sadly haven't had really any motivation to do much of anything. I haven't for quite some time. Whether that's depression or anxiety or both, I don't know. However, I miss connecting with nature, with the Goddess, with the energy of things around me. I've been trying to make it a point, connecting with the energy of Imbolc with my partner, engaging in a pretty small candle ritual.

We lit some candles and placed our intent in the cauldron in the center of which we later buried them for them to grow.

I've been feeling witchy lately, so I made a purchase and bought some oils and candles for some intentional spells that I feel need to occur. Tonight, I began with the spiritual cleansing candle, anointing it, and lighting in to cleanse me spiritually of past hurts and heavy burdens. I paired this with a healing incense. Later, I will light a healing candle, probably when I am done with the cleansing candle.

I have felt stuck and stagnant for so long, I am hoping that with these tools and some motivation, I can work towards removing those blocks and moving past my hold ups. I have such a tendency to hold things in that I know it's not healthy but it's how I cope. Instead, I think I need more spirituality in my life, which is something that I've felt like I've been lacking for quite some time, especially over the past few years. I've even avoided attending CLFUU services online, something that I used to do pretty regularly. I have missed the connection and I need to actively work towards it more.

Sometimes I feel like I lack community and maybe community is what I need. Sometimes I loathe the idea of community because I am definitely a solitary creature.

I plan to bring this blog back, to blog more about my experiences, my ups and downs and my reconnection to my spiritual side.